Complete Randomness

Who says you have to be pregnant to be emotional? From my experiences early on in this whole adoption thing, all I have to do is see a picture of someone seeing their baby for the first time and I'm done. Just like every bad employee, when its slow at work, I tend to surf the net (don't deny it, you know you do) and read up on every/any Ethiopian adoption blog I can find. Through my "blog stalking" I find myself getting choked up every time I read a different referral story. I just can't imagine what that moment is going to be like. The feeling that God has selected this special baby for us so we can take him home and love him. I don't think I quite understand what that kind of love feels like. Yes, there are definitely times in my life that I've had that fierce motherly love for Cameron. However, something tells me that is going to be different from this. So many questions in my mind. When that day comes, what is it going to be like? Where will I be? How long will we have been waiting? What will my reaction be? What will Stuart's reaction be? Then, I think about the first time I actually get to hold this baby. Will I be overjoyed and emotional or completely and utterly terrified that for the first time in my life, I will be solely responsible for a young life? My guess is a combination of both. I came across this video the other day in one of my blog stalking adventures. Seriously, I watch it at least 4 times a week. Get out your tissues and have your sound on.

http://www.kristinjphotography.com/Slideshows/Day4_Slideshow/Ethiopia_Day4/

That's all my randomness for now. Who knew adoption hormones could be so strong?